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Kpl48

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  • Date of Death
    October 2, 2014
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    Desert Hot Springs, California

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  1. Congratulations! Beautiful little baby girl. So much love and new life. I wish you and your family overflowing happiness. ? Kristine
  2. I haven't been as paralyzed by Andre's death. I've been going out with the friends I've made during the past year. I've even had short periods (3-3 days) of less pain when I think of him. It's like I'm doing what he told me to do before he died: "I want you to build a new life." He always thought of me, even when he was dying! Today, reading your shares, I was reminded he was gone...not here with me physically. I haven't cried much for a few days, but now the tears and memories are flowing. I'm so grateful to know we all understand. Grief is really hard, isn't it?
  3. Thank you for sharing these videos. What a great group of people.
  4. Gwen, I'm so sorry to know you had mini strokes. I understand how you feel about losing your independence. My prayers are headed your way.
  5. Please keep sharing. I'm so sorry for your loss. My husband died from lung cancer in 2014. I haven't been sharing a lot lately, but I read every post. This is such a supportive place to come to and members really understand and care.
  6. I haven't shared in several weeks, but I have read every single post. I'm still grieving, yet it is changing. Instead of feeling desperate in the mornings, I'm feeling very tired. I continue to go out almost every day. I'm making deeper friendships. I'm going to a new grief group led by a grief counselor. I'm not crying as much or as long. I don't know if this will continue? Oh, most importantly, I'm taking my dog to a dog park in my resort almost every afternoon. I visit with the people and he visits with the dogs! I'm so sorry we are having a difficult time with Valentine's Day. I'm deliberately not looking at all the V day products in the stores. I might buy myself some flowers. I know I'll miss him so much on and around that day. I still love Andre so very much. I miss him terribly. ❤️ Kristine
  7. I was deeply depressed all weekend. I stayed in bed and slept. Sleeping helps me to not feel. When I would wake up I felt so bleak and all alone. I couldn't do anything. Yesterday a friend called me in the morning. She is feeling extremely anxious and depressed about her life (not in grief). We decided to commit bro each other that we would get certain pressing things done during the day. We encouraged each other. At the end of the day we shared that we accomplished our tasks and felt somewhat better. We will do the same today. This morning I'm not as depressed as I was. From experience, I know I will be depressed again. I will also feel better again. Oh, I cried a lot yesterday, which seemed to help me get going. Feeling my feelings again probably helped me too. I pray today will be a good day.
  8. Mornings are very very hard for me. I wake up to realize he is gone - dead. He's not coming back. I was in shock in the beginning. Then I started feeling worse. I try to get out of being alone because participating in life helps me to feel better. My husband told me he wanted me to live a good life. I try to remember this. There are times I don't want to live, but I know I must go on. I'm learning wanting to die is wanting to go numb so I don't feel my grief and sadness. I believe my grief will lessen as the years move on. For now, it just plain hurts!
  9. Brad, I totally identify with you. My depression and painful grief overwhelmed me last week. I haven't even been able to share here. I'm reading, as always. I spent the weekend in bed sleeping. I made myself get up today and I've been crying all morning. Sleep is a way to numb my feelings, but they are still painfully there. I took my depression medication this morning and it's keeping me out of bed. I have tasks and errands to do. Getting out of the house is usually good for me. I pray we all can feel better in our lives. This grief is so painful.
  10. I miss being together and not having to say a word. Miss his understanding and acceptance of me no matter what. I miss watching the news on TV and commenting to each other and talking (yelling) at news stories. I miss him driving us on errands and senic drives. I miss his funny faces. I miss our life together. I miss everything!
  11. Your plan sounds wonderful. I'm not sure if I could handle a video either. It is my husband's birthday this week and I'm not sure if I can handle it. I think I'll look at the slide show I made. Then cuddle with our dog and think about our life together with gratitude and grief.
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