Hello, I have just joined the group, having lost my mom very suddenly and unexpectely three weeks ago. She died on my parents' 39th wedding anniversary. I'll warn you now--I can already tell I'm going to ramble a bit, but it feels good to have a place to write. My mom was only 59 years old. She was busy preparing to return to her high school English classroom where she was getting ready to enter her 21st year of teaching. She started late in her career, having waiting until all three of us kids were in school before she went back. I've read a lot about the waves of grief, and I feel like they have swarmed me this weekend. My sister had a really rough day on Friday, and I spent Friday night/Saturday with my dad. He's also having a tough time. As for me, my life is so busy with work, college, two kids, a husband, and now watching out for everyone else's grief, I am worried that I really haven't dealt with anything yet, and I'm scared what will happen when the tidal wave hits me. Anyway, I appreciate all the emotions, support and advice that are posted, and I welcome any suggestions from the rest of you. I also signed my siblings and my dad up, so if you are out there reading this, know that I'm thinking about you, and try not to worry about me