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Deedle

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  • Your relationship to the individual who died
    Mom to my kitty daughter Tessa
  • Date of Death
    11/26/2015
  • Name/Location of Hospice if they were involved:
    NA

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  • Your gender
    Female
  • Location (city, state)
    Chas.,SC
  • Interests
    Love Ragdoll cats; enjoy HGTV shows like Hawaii Life, try to keep up with healthcare advances, find Paint Shop Pro a great artistic release
  1. You all are most kind. I do feel that you are all so genuine in your writings. I went to my monthly appointment ( I've gone for years with the same people) for manicure and pedicure and for a much needed facial (I've aged considerably in my face these 3 short weeks since Tessa died). I had to tell both ladies of Tessa's passing. I just could not control my crying. At least I could control my "guttural" noises. One of the ladies we bonded over cats- she has lost one of hers (she had 4) so I felt she understood. The other lady sounded as if she were going to cry when I told her. Both gave me big hugs. It's so difficult to go out in public because sometimes I catch a thought that reminds me of Tessa and the tears just flow. Coming home with my husband I read something to him from an online friend about her dog and again busted out crying. All he can do is rub my leg and say I"m sorry and all I say is they (the tears) will stop soon. Today I just miss everything about her ...
  2. I will have to build up my "strength" to come to the Pet Loss Forum- just stirs up so so many feelings.

    Thx for turning me on to it!

     

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  3. WOW, Marj- Gb's pic shows his curiousity and his intelligence! I have ordered 2 large mural of Tessa that I hopefully will place over fireplace in den. I've received them but don't have the strength to open them right now (being the holidays and people coming over Friday- just don't want to feel on edge all Christmas day). I want it to be just me when I place them. I"m sure it will be a great LOUD cry session.
  4. I can only write a brief amount because the more I think of this, the more sick I feel. My girl Tessa (a blue bicolor Ragdoll cat- see my profile pic, that's her) died unexpectantly on Thanksgiving Day. She had just turned 10 years old the prior October 5th. We (she and I were inseparable-like twins, LOL!) had laid down for a nap on our bed (she had 1/2 of the King and I had the other 1/2)- I heard this awful gasp and I tore out of the side of my bed, and Tessa had arched her back and body out of her "doughnut" shaped bed onto the mattress. BY the time I made it around the bed, she was dead. I tried to do animal CPR but to no avail- I could tell she was gone. {I'll leave the story here) ... my stomach is knotting up and becoming nauseous when I stay on my story. Needless to say I'm like most of you too, missing her, wanting to join her (not suicidal, nope not me), trying to decrease my anxiety by avoiding some things (which I know I've got to stop doing), and probably talking way too much about her. Because I know most do not understand the depth of the love I have for my girl, Tessa. I wonder if I will ever love again like that...... I do hope so. I look as if I've aged 10 years in less than a month. It is taking a big toll on me and probably on my "skin" family- husband and son (Tessa was my "fur" family) My Tessa- Sweetest girl in the World
  5. to SImon's Mom: Don't be so hard on yourself. I bet SImon's at Rainbow Bridge bragging what a great Mom he had! I too lost my "daughter" (see her pic , my profile pic) recently ton Thanksgiving day while we were taking a nap. I too still think I must have done something wrong but I'm wondering if I give myself too much credit.... I think there is something much smarter than me taking away our loved ones. So I do hope Simon meets my Tessa there at Rainbow Bridge. I'm sending to you the strength to seek the good memories you have of Simon and that they outnumber the sad ones.
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