I lost my son 7 years ago after a struggle with addiction..before he died he sent me a text telling me how much he loved me and what a good mom i was ...this was like a gift to me because he died a month later .... I was busy after his death taking care of all my other children and making sure they were all ok .i have 7 others ....so now everyone seems to b ok and I am left still feeling so sad ....I have a rich full life but I am scared that this sadness won't go away . I'm learning not to run from the feelings and to just feel them but that's hard for me to do ... With all the other issues that come from regular living this feels like too much to handle .. I have had many dreams about him and I know his soul is here it's just so sad some days that I feel like I want to die along with him ..I hope this struggle will ease and I won't have to live with this always ...