Bishop:
I am so sorry you are going through so much pain. I lost my mother several years ago, which is when I found this forum at a time I was so, so sad I could hardly breathe. I want you to know that your mother will always be with you. My mother promised me before she died from cancer that she would never leave me. And she hasn't. It is hard to explain, but it is true. As time goes by, you will begin to notice many things that will encourage you, things that you know will be from your mother. Just pay attention. In the meantime, I can tell that your mother loved you very, very much by your message. I am a mother too who would want my children to go on and live a happy, full life. I am sure that is what she wants you to do too. Allow yourself to be sad. It's okay. But each day do one thing for yourself that will make you smile, no matter how little it is. And your mother will be smiling with you. God bless you, and I pray the peace of God fills your heart.
Sally