I rescued a laso apso about 4 years ago. Right before that i had a maltese that I raised from puppyhood. She never bit, she was so sweet, unti about 11 and 1/2 She would demand to go on the patio at night and bark endlessly at nothing. when i called her in she would lunch on me and bite about 15 to 30 bites. They were little bites. although i was all black and blue there wasn't any serious puncture. My doc told me she was being dominant over me because i spoiled her. This didn't seem likely to me since it was a sudden change. She was hypothyroid. and was suffering terribly with skin allergies. The doc had all the numbers right in front of her and just kept saying, if i didn't get her to a behavior therapist, she was going to kill me from infection. Knowing this only happened at night , I thought how can a behaviorist help, she's not going to come to my house at night to see what happens. I also have a brother who considers himself a dog whisperer and follows Cesar Milan. My brother told me to flip her on her side and hold her pulse points down and that would relax her, i didn't realize i was being dominant with her, causing more aggression probably. I was also screaming on the phone a lot. After her euthanasia, i realized there was something physical going on.
I could not recover from this . i was shaking every day.I couldn't go on that way. I have ocd and panic , . and i was falling apart.
next chapter. i started working at a shelter hoping to heal as a photographer, i wanted to make the dogs look good and more adoptable. while i was there thats when i met the laso. She looked like Chelsea and i wanted to save her. one day they put her in the back which was like doggy jail, I couldnt stand it. and even though the administrative assistant had told me she started biting i took her anyway. They told me to go easy with her. Well, the first few nights she slept with me and all was great. very soon, when reaching out to her. she would clamp my hand and hol.d( extremely painful) I always thought my fingers would e mangled but their were bruises on all my fingers. This went on for a year while I had trainers and was working with her and loving her.
On that final day we went to the store ,and i put her in a stroller, . when i went to take her out, she gave me a nip ,not to touch her. I stood there not knowing what to do. While looking at her , she sort of lunged up and bit e in rappifd succession, with a puncture. i thought it was more serious than it was. because i was in a store , the police were called and animal control came. I was comepletely hysterical, without 1 friend to call and help. I sent animal control away and said i would take her to my vet . I was so traumatized I couldn't look at her. But the final straw for me, was when i walked out side and stood behind the stroller and said" Cosette it's mommy' she growled and i knew she didnt want me near her. it was that growl that let me know i couldnt take her home. 2 dogs biting me. one my lifelong dog, and one a rescue, I cannot get over the guilt that i put her down without trying medicine. I have written a million tributes to her. made a plaque in y ard. made her a grave at rainbow bridge. This was three years ago and its in my mind every day. having ocd which latches onto horrible events dosent help. I wanted to put my story out there , so if anyone had anything simalar they could contact me, and also the possibility of helping some one else. thank-you for reading. I have a beautiful wonderful calm dog now. but my neighbors called me a killer. I look at cosette's pics and still grieve i hope someone can help me. I've had therapy and pet loss support. i know have ptsd.
