Cheryl J

It will take awhile. Honestly I don't remember how long it took me before I stopped crying. Everyone is different. It will get easier as time passes though. Hang in there and reach out as much as you need!!!! Cheryl

I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a pet is losing a family member. I understand what you are going through. I had to have my 12 year old chocolate lab put down this past January. It was so hard and even today I still look for him sometimes. Grieve....cry....and remember. For me, it was helpful to have his ashes brought home. They are sitting in my living room along with his pictures. Everyday I talk to him. Hopefully you will find what works for you. Hugs.

Marge, thank you so much for these words. The different stories are proof that no grief is handled the same. There is no rule book that says how we are supposed to grieve or that we are wrong in the way we grieve. Cheryl

My heart goes out to you Brianna. I have lost someone to suicide before and it's so very hard to understand. I would have nightmares about it. I hate to hear that you have to start all over again with a new counselor but I am glad that you have one to go to. I like to hear you are coloring and reading, even if you have to struggle through it...that's ok. You are making an effort to continue on. We are all here for you. Cheryl ???

Repeat as much as you need to. We are here for you!

Another one of our favorites!!!

Doing our own closure is the pits Kay!!!

One of my favorites and dads too

For some reason this weekend I have been really sad over the loss of my boyfriend. I just wish I had a reason why it ended. I need closure.

I'm really missing dad today. I found the pictures of me getting dad situated in the car. For 2 1/2 years I took care of him. It was hard but I can say I really miss that. I want him back. I want to be able to give him his medicine, making him meals, taking him to his doctor appointments, making sure he used his walker, pushing him around in his wheel chair....it's so odd that I miss those things so much.

So glad to hear that you stood your ground. I know how hard that could be. Stay strong!! Cheryl

One of my employees received a phone call today that her mother stopped breathing. She currently is on life support but is brain dead. They wanted to give all the family time to get here to say goodbye so they will be pulling life support in the morning. I am asking that everyone please keep her and the rest of the family in your prayers and thoughts. Just losing Dad in June I very much understand what they are dealing with right now and I hate that they are having to go through this. It breaks my heart. Cheryl

Hi Kerry, first of all I am very sorry for your loss. I am glad though that reached out here. You are grieving so everything your a thinking and feeling is normal. I lost my dad in June and I feel the same way....why didn't I do this or what if I would have done that. The only thing I can say is you did what you thought was best at that moment. I know second guessing ourselves is very easy to do. I just discussed this with my therapist last week. There is no easy answer. Everyone grieves differently so don't feel like the odd one out of the family. Don't hold back your feelings. You are not alone. Prayers and hugs coming your way. Cheryl

Thanks....I know that is the case. It was good to vent!!

It is weird what sets you off into tears, depression, etc. I just received a phone call from my mom's investment agent. She called to inform me that my mom had some friends bring her up to deposit checks from dad's life insurance. For those who do not know, my mom has dementia so I have power of attorney and on all accounts. Anyway, she called me to let me know about this to make sure I was aware. As well, to advise me we have to sit down to set it up for investments and have my dad's name removed since he was deceased. I scheduled the appointment, hung up the phone and had to walk outside before I started hyperventilating. Its just those things that sets you off. Cheryl

You need to take care of yourself as much as possible. Try just a little bit at a time.

This weekend has had its ups and downs. It is weird how one minute you can be fine and the next minute you want to crawl in a hole. Laughing then crying. At peace then depressed. I know that everyone out there experiences these same ups and downs. Like me doing my video journal, sharing here is like another way of release. So, while I sit here drinking coffee and watching some silly show I think about these ups and downs....minute by minute....second by second. I tell myself "I got this". Sometimes I do and sometimes I don't but I know that this is part of the process. Thanks for letting me share!!! Cheryl

Brianna, I think most of us that is going through grief do this. I know I catch myself doing the silliest things that I normally would not do or forgetting things that are important. Its like our brain is in a fog. You are not alone. Cheryl

what a cutie

WOW!! Did I have a major breakdown today. Morning started off bad at home. By the time I got to work issues just put me over the edge! I had my appointment with my therapist and we were going to go through all my dad's pictures to celebrate his life. As soon as I set down in her office I sobbed and didn't stop until maybe 10 minutes before our session was over. It was a wild ride. I'm exhausted. Tough, tough day. And please bring Spongebob stickers for my helmet.!!

I will!!!

I'm having a rough day too. Let's have one together.