Gettingthrough79

So many are quick to judge. I'm sick to my ato n a chance tonight and don't wish this feeling on anyone. But, befoe they judge, let's see how it feels when it happens to them.

So many are quick to judge. I'm sick to my ato n a chance tonight and don't wish this feeling on anyone. But, befoe they judge, let's see how it feels when it happens to them.

It's almost pitch black out because of the storm and I woke up a shaky mess as usual. I miss my mother and all the losses I've suffered the past 2 months. I'm just laying here not knowing what to do. I even miss my abusive ex if that makes sense. Bills are piling up, I'm more isolated then ever with people judging me. No words make this better. How do I go on?

I miss my mother too much, cat is gone, car is totaled, losing the house, and the boyfriend.... How can someone's brain process all these losses in such a short time. Family members and friends being careless and mean?? I have hardly any money left and wake up every morning shaking. Thank God I have a wonderful doctor who has been bringing me food or I would hardly eat. I am trying so hard.....it hurts too much...no ones words can help although I know people try. I have to go look at 2 condos tomm with a friend but I'm scared he won't show up because I'm so used to being let down. Filled with panic and anxiety. If you pray, please pray for me, if you don't please send positive thoughts my way. I don't even know how I'm gonna make it in the bath.

She smells fine and Im not even around her hardly. My realtor is just a condescending bitch. Found a new one.

Ty for all the replies....yes he is sadistic, the last thing I thought he was. I am lucky to have an ex boyfriend come help me pack Saturday. and look at a few places to live. I just wanna rot and not get out of bed and no one thing anyone can change that unless I do it myself. I am finding it too hard.

Yes, have to sell the house.

I can live here, not much longer though.

had rescued a cat years ago. She's feral. She has a bit of an odor but I love her and deal with it. My realtor just told me I stink like cats when I get in her car. Wtf??? And I know I do not smell. Freaking btich. How rude can you be? And I know it's not true...even though the grief I'm going through, I keep my clothes clean.

Thankyou. I am finding it hard to eat, walk, sleep, etc. I got into a car accident two days before my mother died. I lost my cat, boyfriend, car, cat and mother all in a week. I had to sell the house to get some income yet don't have the strength to go look st rentals. I feel like I'm living in purgatory or hell.

Falling apart too.

They're very strict with pets here and I have no pay stubs because I stopped working to caretaker for my mom. I feel like I'm serving a penance.

I have to call the lawyer. I'm sitting here frozen in time. People keep saying push on , you have to keep going, you have no choice. I barely dragged myself out of bed today and can't picture facing all these things without my mother. Oh God, please help me. No one really understands unless they are going through it or have gone through it. It's sad but true. I totaled my car, lost my cat, lost an abusive bf (I GUESS FOR THE BEST) ,calling me everyday just to remind me he never wants to be with me again, he just calls because I ask him too... lost my mother all in basically 2 weeks. I went from being so happy to the worst mess possible, but all the loss is making me nuts. I can't let it get me. Then I think of the holidays and how alone I will be. God, help me keep any sanity I have left. Ty to all who listen, I know I keep repeating the same thing. I can't help it. It's just all too much. I'm sorry I don't reply much to other people's posts. I just cant take it anymore. No matter what anyone says or what suggestions they give, I don't want to keep going. Ty in advance for listening.

Absolutely no family...

Im misplacing everything to top it all off..I'm lucky I can walk.

Incredibly sad. Told the ex bf off which was very hard to do. As much as I feel I need the familiarity of him I can't have him calling me telling me every day we will never be together. How mean can some people be?

Incredibly sad. Told the ex bf off which was very hard to do. As much as I feel I need the familiarity of him I can't have him calling me telling me every day we will never be together. How mean can some people be?

Thankyou Bill. I'm sorry for all your losses.. It was hell dragging myself out of bed today. Love and prayers be with you as well.

I've done exactly the same..trying to figure out why I do it. One doctor said because I held in all the bullying and rate as a child, I take it out now on the people I care about the most. .then wind up lonely again.

I've been going though this everyday although I get bits of relief here and there It's truly awful I miss my mother so much I can hardly move and on top of that I have so many business affairs to tend to. I wake up like a mental patient.

I'm sick of the "you'll get over it, time will pass, take care of you, move on, do what you have to do." Enough is enough. It's aggravating. No one knows what this feels like unless they've been through it. I know not everyone handles this well but I truly found out who cared and who didn't and unfortunately in my case many people didnt. They showed their true colors.

Part of me died with her and I cant, eat,sleep, or get her back, no matter how many people I talk too. When you lose your everything no words matter.

The first thing I thought of was please, dear God, don't let me be homeless. Not one person has offered me to stay with them for awhile until I find a place. The closing on the house will be soon and I feel immobilized. Looking for a place to live on top of my mother's recent death, losing my beloved cat, getting into a car accident, breaking up with my bf, I feel like I'm having a nervous breakdown. I can't seem to pull it together. I don't want to lose my mind. I have my dog to look after. He's like my son. I talk to counselors, take my meds but that only does so much. I feel like I'm being buried and can't get out.

I do have pics but can't bear to look at them I can't even talk about it..I woke up filled with anxiety..it's too much to bear.

Ty for your regards about the cat...it's horrible.