I feel your pain, quicksand. I lost my mother August 2016 & I still cry all the time. She was my best friend & sounding board. The man I was seeing came to help me pack her things then dumped me shortly thereafter. My sister kept money my mom left & my other sister supported that. So, I feel all alone in a hostile world. I have a hard time every day. I wish I could offer you some positive advice or soothe your pain but I’m right there with you. It’s like I’m in a living hell. Friends don’t understand so I’ve isolated myself as well. I can’t wait to join her & be free from this misery.