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Thank you all for your kind words, It really helps to talk to people. I think I am still in shock as I just can't believe she is gone. I still don't have a funeral date, so hoping once the funeral has taken place I will start accepting she is gone and be able to grieve properly. I miss her so much, it hurts. Thank you all again xx

My mum passed away on the 9th April 2017, just over a week ago. I have 2 sisters, but one died 10 years ago, so now it's just me and my sister who is 2 years older. She lives approx 5hrs from me, but 35mins before our mum died she got to the hospital in time. We were holding our mums hands until she took her last breath. I cried and told her I would always love her and cried the next day, but haven't since, I am devasted. It all happened so quickly, but even though she was ill, she died of something else. I feel sad and want to scream as my mum was my life. She lived with me, so we were very close. I just can't believe she is gone and feel that I'm going to wake up soon from this nitemare I am in and everything will be ok. When I was a little girl I used to lay in bed and cry because I couldn't bear the thought of losing my mum and now it has happened I feel numb. Is this normal? Trudy