In an attempt to get some insight into how I'm feeling I googled "grief and perimenopause" and it brought me here. Sometimes I feel very alone in my feelings. About the time I started having perimen. symptoms, I also started a journey with two parents with dementia. Broken bones, surgeries, rehabs, nursing homes, etc etc. My Mom died in 2011 after a 2 year long decline. I was newly married in Dec 2009. As an only child I felt consumed with this caregiving journey even though they didn't live with me. I feel like I never grieved my Mom's death fully because I went right from that to making sure my Dad was cared for, as he became a dementia patients who acted out, running away, etc. I was hoping I would be in true menopause by now but it just seems to elude me. I feel like I've neglected my marriage, consumed with hormones, grief, and trying to handle everything. I am also the main bread winner with alot of job responsibility. Can anyone relate? This perimenopause stage is making me nuts. I tend to keep things inside and not share how I'm feeling and then sometimes it seems feelings shouldn't feel so "big" and paralyzing.
