I am very sorry for your losses. I lost my 5 year old daughter 24 years ago, and it seems like yesterday. Some of my best friends did not know how to act around me after her death. I was very hurt because I didn't understand why everyone's life went on as normal and my life would never be the same. I finally realized that my friends were just as hurt about the loss as I was. It took some time to figure out my "new normal". I will say that the only thing that keeps me going is knowing that I will see my daughter in heaven one day. As a Christian, I have that promise from God. Please read the articles from the other posters and seek help from a certified counselor. My husband and I struggled for years over the death of our daughter, and our marriage only got better after we met with a counselor. Thinking of you!