Dave, I was one week shy of one year with my love. I lost him one month ago. I was first widowed in 2008 and now again one month ago...It is actually harder this time around because we were SO in love and had never experienced anger nor disillusionment between the two of us. We were still discovering each other and so delighted and excited in doing so. We just got stronger and more in love every day. There was nothing to get angry at, nothing that I can say "well at least I don't have to deal with that anymore" (I know that sounds horrible but I had those thoughts in the back of my mind when my husband died, I'm sure it was a way my brain was trying to protect me from so much pain). I am currently still discovering things about my recent lost love and it is so painful to not have him to ask questions or clarify things I am learning.
I KNOW he loved me more than anyone in his life ever - his friends, coworkers, sisters, parents- they all tell me this now and even told me this before he died. But we just didn't have enough time together....I feel you deeply.