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peanutbritt

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  • Date of Death
    07/08/17
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    Barcelona, Spain

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  1. Dave, I was one week shy of one year with my love. I lost him one month ago. I was first widowed in 2008 and now again one month ago...It is actually harder this time around because we were SO in love and had never experienced anger nor disillusionment between the two of us. We were still discovering each other and so delighted and excited in doing so. We just got stronger and more in love every day. There was nothing to get angry at, nothing that I can say "well at least I don't have to deal with that anymore" (I know that sounds horrible but I had those thoughts in the back of my mind when my husband died, I'm sure it was a way my brain was trying to protect me from so much pain). I am currently still discovering things about my recent lost love and it is so painful to not have him to ask questions or clarify things I am learning. I KNOW he loved me more than anyone in his life ever - his friends, coworkers, sisters, parents- they all tell me this now and even told me this before he died. But we just didn't have enough time together....I feel you deeply.
  2. I live in Barcelona, Spain. So far I have not found any grief counseling in my native language. It's also almost August and the whole country goes on holiday, so my psychologist is gone until September as are most of my friends. This is why I'm going to the US to be with family for most of August. I'm looking for a group in Newprot RI where I will be for 3+ weeks. After that...I don't know. I'll be back here in Europe but the future is soo uncertain at the moment, I dread the week to come much less the next month, year, the rest of my life...
  3. thank you all for your kind words. I don't really have many people around me. I have a couple of close friends here but my family is all in the US. I am leaning very hard on my friends but these are all "newer" friends who did not see me through my first loss. It's very lonely. Fortunately, in 1.5 weeks I will be going to be with my family and a good friend for 3-4 weeks. I cannot wait, it is quite unbearable here trying to explain that I am not "feeling better" three weeks after losing the love of my life!! I can't believe I am going through this again...
  4. Thank you. The awful thing (one of the many) is that on the anniversary of my husband's death earlier this year, I finally realized I no longer identified as a widow anymore. I was so happy, finally, and could let it go. Two months later, my boyfriend died. I'm struggling to understand why this is happening to me, what lesson about loss did I not learn? It's so unjust, I just can't make sense of any of it.
  5. Hi all, I was widowed at the age of 37 nine years ago. I few years after, I had a long, "safe" relationship (safe because it was comfortable and I knew I would never stay in the relationship). Finally, just a little over a year ago, I met a wonderful younger man who really taught me how to love. I loved this person more than I had ever loved anyone. We had one short year together. Three weeks ago, he lost his life in a motorcycle accident. This was the same way my husband died 9 years ago. I am in such shock that this is happening again and so heartbroken - I've lost the love of my life. I don't know how to survive this...
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