My father was my best friend...my support... Everything. We two were the craziest when together. He died a month ago... Everything was so sudden and shocking ...am still not in the state to accept that he is not with me anymore. I can't sleep... and even if I sleep..I get this feeling that he is going to wake me up and say its all is just a bad dream. M the eldest of the siblings...so now I have the responsibility of whole family...I had to leave my studies to be with my family..This is all too much and very sudden for me.
But still i was trying to cope up until a week ago my boyfriend dumped me. We have been together since 2009. We used to fight..broke up a lot of times..still it was never this bad. Now when I need him the most... The only man i loved after my father... he left over a petty fight.
Maybe it was too much for him too...i always kept crying and talked about my problems...he got bored maybe. Now when I know he never deserved so many years of my life..I regret every moment spent with him. Also , now I have noone left to fall back on... I can't be weak before my family as I am the one they look up to for strength.
It's difficult to handle so much at once...m going insane...it's too much.
