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Hi Dawn, I feel your pain as well. And as chuckles said take it one day at a time. Our moms would all want us to go on and face each day that comes. Do it for your mom. She is with you. Libby

Hi Dawn, I completely know how you feel. Hugs to you, Libby

My mom's birthday was in July and she had been gone almost a year. The way I got through the day was doing something to celebrate who she was. My girls and I made cards for her then attached them to balloons and let them go. It was like we were sending them to heaven to be with her. Libby

Hi All, A friend of mine sent this to me and I thought I would share it with all who have lost their mom like me. It has been a year and 21 days since my mom passed and I miss her each and every day. Enjoy, Libby Your Mother is always with you. She's the whisper of the leaves as you walk down the street. She's the smell of certain foods you remember, flowers you pick and perfume that she wore. She's the cool hand on your brow when you're not feeling well. She's your breath in the air on a cold winter's day. She is the sound of the rain that lulls you to sleep, She is Christmas morning. Your Mother lives inside your laughter . And she's crystallized in every tear drop. A mother shows every emotion......Happiness, sadness, fear, Jealousy, love, hate, anger, helplessness, excitement, joy, sorrow. And all the while, hoping and praying you will only know the Good Feelings in life. She's the place you came from, your first home, She's the map you follow with every step you take. She's your first love, your first friend, even your first Enemy, But nothing on earth can separate you. Not time, not space.......not even death!

Hi, I too lost my mom. It was a year ago August 1st. You all have found a great place. I have come here often through the year. Sometimes just to read what others have posted to know that I am not alone and other times I would respond. The people here are loving and caring and all have been through similiar losses. Libby

Hi Chuckles, I too lost my mom. It was a year ago August 1st and I have to say it was the longest year of my life. I felt like I was on a roller coaster ride with no way off. I think of my mom daily and cry often. You have a hard road ahead of you and my advice to you is to let your emotions come as they may. Libby

I too know how heart breaking it can be to see you mom go from one person to another. At the end my mother was paralized from the waist down and could not go to the bathroom on her own. She had a cathater and then was given enemas to poop. She hated it and did not want to live that way. It was hard to see her like that because she went from a vibrant lady who loved the outdoors, adventures, traveling, learning, etc. to bed ridden. It is heart wrenching for me to think about. Try to hang in there and remember your mom during the healthy years. That is what I do. Libby

What a beautiful song. Thanks for sharing. I cried listening to it and thought lots about my mom. I miss her so much.

Hi Dawn, I too lost my mom to cancer. She died a year ago August 1st. I can so related to what you are feeling. She was not only my mom but my closest friend. I miss her each and every day. It is still a hard thing to accept that she is truely gone. But I know in my heart of hearts that she is in a better place, one free from all the pain, and that some day we will see each other again. Hold your memories of your mom close to you and let your emotions come as they may. The year ahead of you will be a long one but please know that you are not alone. Libby

I miss mine as well. What a beautiful poem.

Hi Ramona, I too lost my mom. It will be a year on August 1st. My mom and I were very close so I cannot relate to that aspect of your loss. However, I do know that this whole grieving process takes time. You will feel like you are on a roller coaster ride much of the time. Do take care of yourself and let the pain, tears, etc. come as they may. Hugs, Libby

Where can lesson #23 be found? Libby

I ditto Trudy's sentiments. Keep posting. I don't post often because I tend to hold lots in. Probably not the best thing to do while grieving but I do come here often to read what others have written and find comfort knowing that I am not alone. Libby

Hi Lavender, I love your idea of releasing balloons on your mom's birthday. My mother's birthday is on July 19th and I was trying to think of something to do to honor her. This will be the first birthday since she passed. She would have been 67. It is going to be a hard day for me because I think of how young she was when she died and how many more years she should have lived as well as all the years I have to live without her. I miss her each and every day. Libby

Hi Shell, Just wanted to let you know I am thinking about you as well. I know the process so well as I am still working on some of my mother's things. It is a very long process so hang in there. My mother will be gone a year on August 1st and I am still trying to straighten out some of her accounts. Take care, Libby

Hi Maureen and All, I have come here often over the past year because I too lost my mom. It will be a year on August 1st. I come here when I need comfort and need to know that others feel the same way I do. I came here today because this past weekend we buried my mom. After, her passing we had her cremated then this past weekend we took her to her home town in Iowa and buried her next to her parents. I was doing so well with her passing but this trip and burying her has stirred up so many emotions. I think too that seeing her family and friends did not help because I saw them there and kept thinking mom should be with us. I feel robbed as well because she was so young (66) and most of the woman in her family have lived into her mid 80's. I feel like I was cheated out of 20 more years to be with her. I miss her so much and want to talk to her. Does the pain ever go away. Libby

Hi, I too have not been around in quite awhile but feel that with Mother's Day and my birthday fast approaching I need some support. This is the first Mother's Day without my mom too and my birthday is 8 days later and another first without my mom. My mom passed away August 1, 2006. I love the idea that was mentioned earlier in this topic and I will be joining you all as well. My mother is Margaret Ann Schrodt Murray and she was 68 when she died. I miss her each and every day. Libby

Hi Sandra, I am so sorry for your loss. I too lost my mom to cancer. She died in August and I am sorry to say at this time it does not seem any easier. I too was with her when she died and those images pop back often. I had a panic attack (so to speak) the other night over it. I was so afraid that she, herself, was scared to die and that was nothing I can do to help. As for advice, take it a day at time, let the grief come when it does. Hugs to you, Libby

Marie, Thanks for the advice. I think I will take both of us for a massage. I sure could use one these days. Libby

Well all after what seems like an eternity we finally heard that my daughter's CT scan came back ok. She is continuing to have headaches so the doctors are thinking it might be migranes thus we are undergoing more tests. Thank you for all of your support. It has been a crazy couple of weeks but I think we are past the worst of it. Libby

Hi, I would sleep more if I could but having two children makes that impossible. I think sleep is very healing so do it while you can. Libby

Hi Shell, Thanks for your advice. I think I will take your last piece and let out a gut wrenching scream. You better watch out because you may hear me all the way where you live. Libby PS We did get a call from the animal hospital this morning and my husband is on his way to pick up our puppy. He seems to be doing better with the fluids they gave him last night. Now, just waiting on word about my daughter.

At I am at the three month mark and I have to say it has been far the worst. I cry at a drop of a hat and the pain I feel for missing my mom is so much more intense. The thoughts of the approaching holidays and not having her here are not helping either. Libby

Hi All, I have posted most of what my week has been like in "Always Thinking the Worse" for those who have not read that i will give you a short rundown: 1. youngest daughter has broken foot - not healing well - needs physical therapy 2. oldest daughter has reoccuring headaches - took her to the doctor for blood work and CT scan - waiting results 3. father-in-law - in hospital recovering from back surgery - have to go visit him when all my thougths of hospitals are from mom's times there. Well from those three I was hitting maximum overload on the emotions. Then tonight came and put me over the top. I had to take our 6 month shih-tzu puppy to the animal hospital because he became lethargic after vomiting and having diarrhea. He is now spending the night there so they can figure out what is wrong with him. Needless to say I am an emotional wreck. I have cried none stop and just want to crawl in bed pull the covers up and not come out again. I cannot deal with anymore!!!!!! Oh, and I cannot stay in bed as my mom's husband came up to day for a visit. (His visit is adding to the emotions as well. His first time here without mom.) And then tomorrow my brother, his wife, and 4 kids are coming for the night as well. Maybe, I should go check myself into the nearest hotel. If I make it to Monday without having a breakdown it will be a miracle. HELP ME!!!!! Libby

Hi All, Thank you for all of your advice and carrying thoughts. Yesterday my daughter did have her CT scans but as many of you thought I don't have the results yet. It is going to be a LONG weekend. The doctor did call late afternoon and her blood work thus far has come back looking good, so that is a relief. I will keep you all posted. Again thanks for all the thoughts and prayers. Libby