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Martha, I think one of the most comforting ways of grieving is through telling others about your significant other and your stories together. I completely understand how a simple message can turn into something so much more-it can be therapeutic. One suggestion I was given in the beginning was to write my thoughts and feelings down. Whether it is worded to your love or to an 'outsider' just write it down. Even if no one reads it, it can serve as an outlet. Eventually the positive memories will begin to creep out and some days those happy memories will be the only thing to get you through the day. As for the changing feelings about your religion- I understand. How can you truly decide what you believe? Of course all of us hope for an afterlife in which we can reunite with our other halves. It is okay to change your views; even if you end up changing them again and again later on down the road. Right now the only focus is for you to effectively, and healthily begin a life that you can find satisfaction in. Start small and eventually this horrible pain becomes one of the most beautiful parts of you. You are lucky enough to have had a true love in your life. One day there will be a point where that simple fact gives you a sort of 'glow' inside (for lack of a better word.) All I can say is that I understand and wish people could be more reliable for you: do what YOU need to do in order to reach a better place in life. Though you may feel alone, you never are

Hi sydneem, I relate a lot to your feelings and also feeling as though no one understands the emotions running rampant in your mind. What struck me most about your story (it actually led me to create an account JUST to leave this comment) was when you said you wished people would ask about your SO, share memories-just something to hear his name said aloud. Everyday I wish the same about mine. I do not know how strange this would be, but if you want to contact each other outside of this website, I would love to listen to your guys' story. I understand what it feels like and truly wanting just to tell your story. I would love to lend a listening ear if you want. It gets more bearable with time, though not 'easier', I promise.