Dear Dee, wow! You have gone thru a lot and are obviously a strong individual! God is with you and has held you up with His mighty right hand. I am glad to hear of your process taking shape and that you have come out on the other side well. Yes, grief is multi-faceted and very difficult in all it's stages! The things we go thru that are tough help us to know how to help others. I'm sure God will let you help others who are hurting and that even more will heal and repair your heart. Thank you for sharing this, all of it, and God bless you! I once heard that life is more of a train track than a roller coaster and that we always have both good and bad, but one or the other guides us this way or that, and in the end, they both create our destiny and purpose. Help others, it will bless you too. =)