Pauly

Thank you all for your kind words, I know somewhere in the space they call my head that she won't be coming home. As far as the bottle goes its a NO from now on, before I came on this site and read all your stories I really believed that grief was something you suffered with for a couple of days and then everything went back to normal. Well how wrong was I. This morning I'm packing before I go to work and for the life of me I can't think what I want to wear, the Boss always organised me when it came to holidays. Well its 3 days to go and i'm suffering panic attacks about leaving here without her, the sudden onset of overwhelming grief is getting more and more often. One of my wife's close friends said she would want me to go, but I just can't that feeling of guilt and dread. I hope you all have a Lovely weekend and hopefully i'll be sat here next week talking to all. Pauly

Like what Brad said i'm due to fly out on the 13th to Ireland to see my parents and then onto London to see my brother, strange thing is i'm getting panic attacks about going somewhere without my Wend. My closest friends say the trip will do me good but for the life of me i can't see how when i seem to struggle with everyday tasks

Hi all I'm new here. I lost my Wife,best friend and the only woman who could put up with me last March. I've never in my life have felt such pain as if somebody has punched me in the chest, then stood back and said now get on with your life. The past couple of weeks over Christmas and New Year have been horrendous, I know I shouldn't have but I hit the bottle Christmas Day. I cannot seem to stop breaking down and sobbing away then there is the anger and guilt, the emptiness....