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A&K

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  • Your relationship to the individual who died
    Wife, DIL, Mother, oldest son and three baby girls.
  • Date of Death
    In laws three baby girls and son and my husband.
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  • Your gender
    Female
  • Location (city, state)
    Norwich, CT

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  1. My emotions are so raw. I’m still numb but at the same time I ache so bad. I’ve been tearing up just by stupid little things. I’m so stupid. 😞
  2. Happy belated birthday to you Marty sorry I’m so late love, Katie and the boys.
  3. Hi. I can’t believe it’s been more than six months now since my dear Allen took his life. I’m still so very heartbroken 😞. I’m numb still and hurting all at the same time. I don’t know if being hurt and numb simultaneously is possible. Caleb still aches for his dad. And Ryan is just too young at 19 months. I exist for my boys. They are my sole reason for getting up everyday. I will ache for Allen for my entire life. My girlfriend asked me the other day if I saw myself ever dating again and I said absolutely not. My heart and life belonged to Allen. How could she ask me such a thing? It still takes everything in me to function most days. Again, I do it for the boys. I read here when I can. I don’t have words to help anyone yet. My heart is with everyone ❤️ Katie
  4. Hi everyone. It’s been a while I know. Christmas was harder than I ever imagined it could be. On top of having two sick boys. I ended up going to the hospital from my therapists office because I couldn’t contract for safety with her or my Dr. My Mom brought the boys to the ER so I could see them and explain to Caleb mostly that Mommy needed to be away to be taken care of and that I promise nothing wasn’t going to happen to me and I would return. And it wasn’t their fault. Ryan of course is too young to understand. But Caleb understood. I then was admitted to the psych unit for 18 days. I still have thoughts of not wanting to live but I’ve learned coping strategies to cope. I’m in no danger as I was. Im on meds to help me. I’m glad to be home with the boys. This grief is so gripping. I want to take my boys and walk away far far away from it but I know it isn’t possible. I’m missing my love and our children we lost. So very much it hurts too much. I pray for all of you. I think of everyone often. Love Katie.
  5. Happy holidays to all. I wish we all had our loved ones back. Im a mess without my Allen and our kids. I’m just a mess. 😢
  6. I miss my babies! My heart hurts! It’s so wrong to lose your children before yourself. It’s just not right. 😢💔😢💔😢💔😢💔😢💔.
  7. Thank you ALL here. im shopping for Christmas for the boys and I’m super sad and triggered that I’m missing Allen doing this with me and missing Gracie Noah and the other babies that belong here. Life isn’t fair. I want to scream it on top of my lungs or punch something but I know I can’t rationally do this. My heart is broken so much. Caleb has been talking about Noah a lot as he has the most memories with him. And he misses his dad so much. Our family is so broken. 😢💔
  8. So we made it through thanksgiving but not unscathed. Myself and both boys are sick. We all have strep throat and Ryan also has a double ear infection. So mom is over with homemade soup and cuddles. I miss my husband very much. Caleb really misses his dad right now. This is a long bumpy road...
  9. I miss my Allen. There just aren’t enough words. This was his favorite holiday. He would do most of the cooking. He loved family all around. It’s a sad day. Now. 😢
  10. The holidays are sadly and painfully here. This thanksgiving I want to say I thank the Lord above for all of you precious friends here. We all have the same loss. It’s the worst way to become friends and “family” but it’s the safest place for many of us. So thank you all for your love you’ve showed me and my family. Love and hugs Katie-girl, Caleb, and Ryan.
  11. My parents and best friend are coming over and doing the cooking. Im having a terrible time emotionally. It just never gets easier.
  12. Thanks everyone yes im on an anti inflammatory med. that’s really all that can be done. It could last a few days to a month. It’s not better yet. Crying today didn’t help it. 😢. And yes I’m sleeping in the recliner so the pain isn’t as bad. We are getting our first snow storm yay... 😕
  13. I’ve spent six hours in the ER this morning. I felt like I was having a heart attack. That was ruled out. Pneumonia was ruled out. And blood clots in my lungs were ruled out. I have viral pleurisy. The most painful thing I’ve ever endured. Laying down is excruciating. It could last a few days to a few weeks. 😫
  14. I’m continuing to struggle. My boys are what keeps me going. It’s been three and a half months since my love took his life. It feels so raw still. My heart just bleeds. 😞.
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