I'm right there with you. My dad recently passed away from lung cancer and I was his primary caregiver. I was lucky that I could take off a couple of weeks from work to be with him, but everytime I left to go back to work, he went back i nto the hospital. Even though I know that it wasn't my fault (he had a ruptured spleen, then pancreatis), I still feel as if, if I stayed out with him, then he wouldn't have declined so much...