As l'm new here l have been riding the wave of all of your emotions, things that I have been feeling are tearing me apart I'm lost with out Maggie, there is no joy left and my fear of writing as Maggie help me through my life being that I'm lowly educated being a manual labor guy she carried me though this life and I just can't find any thing positive right now or think that I ever will but as I promised my daughter I would try to find someone to talk to but with my anxiety's it will be hard, not as hard as this writing is, as I'm opening myself up to ridicule for my grammar & spelling. I don't believe it will happen here but the fear is there. Well to the topic I'm looking for anything positive and the only thing I can come up with is if I did not have our pets I would have followed her. Dam I'm so pissed off I was supposed to go first for 36yrs that was the plan and now she left me in a cruel world by myself.You and others tell me I'll get pass this and move on but I can't see the light and don't even know if I want to