I lost my very best friend one year ago in my home country. I got really shocked since I was in the US and didn't know anything about her illness. I had very had time to accept this fact that my super energetic friend with big wishes is no longer on the earth. Since I am far from my family and my home country friends, I didn't have the chance to talk with our common friends about our memories and mourning together. I had a very difficult year with lots of ups and downs. Recently, my grandfather has died and the death and grief still continue. My family and my friend's family all recover from this grief. However, it's still in me and I think it transformed into anxiety. I really afraid of death and whenever I think about it I tolerate lots of stress. Any advice can help.
Thanks
