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I tried to take everyones advice and I did for the most part. Then on Monday morning he reached out and we have been chatting via text ever since. I still was trying to give him space and when I wouldn't respond he would double text or change the subject to keep the conversation going. We never talked about our relationship, just chatted about things we normally would talk about. We stopped talking last night and now I am even more confused.

The thing is, I totally believe everything he said. He was so sad and kept telling me he didn't want to break up with me but just felt like he had to. There were some texts exchanged the evening after we broke up saying he didn't like this but I didn't respond. I don't want him to take that as I'm over it, I just think I need to give it some time. Everyone that knows us is telling me he will come back. It is hard because we were such independent people that I still made time for everything I love, friends, working out, family, volunteering, etc. It is weird, I am not even that upset, probably because in my heart of hearts I know he will come back, I just don't want to sound stupid for saying that but also not going to wait around for him.

I was with my boyfriend for nearly 2 years and things were awesome, we basically lived together, hung out every day but also had our own lives as to not by co-dependent on each other. On our 3rd date he told me his mom had cancer, and this was the third time. As our relationship grew, I spent time with his mom and got to know her but he never really talked about how he was feeling about it, but I guess that is probably because he was used to the feeling. A year into our relationship he broke up with me because he said he didn't know if he could see himself marrying me. It lasted about 24 hours before we were back together as he knew he made a huge mistake. After that, things were even better than before. About a month ago, he had to go down to where his family lives on my birthday because she wasn't doing well. Those few weeks after that he was distant, we still hung out every single day, but things were different. Two weeks ago, things started to get really bad with her and I went down there to be with him as she died. For the first few days after he was very reliant on me and told me infinite times how happy I was there for him. Then, this weekend he abruptly broke up with me. He told me I am his best friend, he has never been happier than with me, I make him a better person, but his gut tells him I am not the right person for him. He kept saying he didn't want to break up with me but felt like has had to due to this "gut feeling". He told me that on paper he should marry me because we are so happy and perfect together. He never once mentioned his mom's death being a part of this decision but I am wondering if it is as we were so happy before. Trying to decide if I should reach out or not...