Sending you lots and lots of love and solidarity Asuma!!
I'm in a really similar boat to you. My mum was the same age as yours when she passed and I'm the same age as you. The friends sitch is also very similar - my mum was my best friend and I had depression before she died and she really helped me through it.
Everyday I wake up, I feel like I'm just experiencing a bad dream and although it's only been a few weeks I really can't imagine spending the rest of my life (especially if it's a long one without her). Like, I just don't know how.
You're not alone in how you feel!!
