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kayc: Am sad to read you're trying to be a good guest but not knowing what is right is so difficult. Sweet Kodie must be so unhappy being out of his element. Hoping this nightmare will end for you and Kodie soon. Hugs, Dee

Marg: Happy 79th Birthday. Hope you're finding an enjoyable way to celebrate. Wish it were possible for all of us to sit in the shade and enjoy a big cold glass of iced sweet tea with you. Best wishes and Birthday Hug, Dee.

Marg: After my wonderful PC doctor for over 17 years retired, the younger PC doctor I started seeing would not write a prescription for a refill on Xanax. I had used a slight dosage to help me sleep after Bob passed away. The new doctor stated the same reason that it had been determined to cause dementia. Yesterday I was talking to my SIL on the telephone and he told me that my daughter's kidney doctor who had been prescribing Xanax to my daughter for her anxiety issues was instructed by the medical board, not sure which governing board it would be exactly that he would have to cut my daughter's dosage in half. She was able to have her pain pump physician continue her usual dosage. Seems interesting to think some physician's will and some won't. Dee

Gwen: One huge step made. You will be in my thoughts between now and when it's over. Hopefully the weatherman is correct in reporting rain is in the forecast next week. A few rain showers could help cool the Northwest off. So sorry you are feeling so alone as you deal with the pain. Take care. Hugs, Dee

kayc: Keeping you and Kodie and your home in my thoughts. I know your daughter must be relieved knowing you are there with her. Hugs. Dee

Gwen: No apologies required. Just some days, as you know, are tougher than others. It's good you were able to listen to your friend. Hugs, Dee

Gwen: I understand how you feel about the area changing so quickly. Unlike you, I am more content to stay put at home instead of getting into my car and finding a need to go out. Last week as I was needing to meet with my son to set up my Comcast service at my new home, I had the option of going to an office closer to my current home, but instead chose to drive to my son's, an hour away, that I am accustomed to driving instead. The closer location was in an area I haven't driven in for years, so would be like going to a new city. My eyesight isn't forgiving in unfamiliar areas. Tacoma is rapidly changing as Seattle is changing. My driving slower only makes other drivers more impatient with me. I find there isn't anything really worth watching on TV anymore. I'm too old for so many of the shows or the old movies remind me how old and limited I am. I try not to think about the outside world. The world I was used to living in is long gone. If I ever get myself resettled in my new home totally, I'll worry about the world then, or not. It takes everything inside me to just get through my silly, boring day. Marg: I consider myself somewhat a Christian, so I will work on remembering that mustard seed more as I go through my day. Thank you for the reminder. Dee

Yes, kayc there many days I feel the same way. I don't think I could hasten the event, but trying to face every day sometimes gets harder and harder, as the days pass. I keep reminding myself to look for that reason and put that "foot in front of the other". Just not very much fun anymore. I peeked at your recent photo of Kodie on another thread last night and he made he smile. Hugs, Dee

Marg: So good to see you on the Forum again. I was wondering if you have been ok. Oh yes, I know the generation you come from, I am a year ahead of you and I try hourly to remain a very accepting OLD lady. These times anymore are really difficult to understand, much less accept. Being raised in the South, too, I have been accused of being too Southern in my standards in many situations. Many years ago when my sister in law shared to me she was gay, it didn't make any difference to me who she loved. Through the years, it has been a learning experience talking and listening to her when and how she knew she was gay. She and her partner are very dear to me. I am sorry your grand daughter felt she had to leave as she did. I am sure within time she will smooth over any bad feelings. At age 22, I believe that is the beginning of reaching adulthood for some. Not sure why 18 is considered being an adult in our society. As others have stated, you are an amazing Grandma and Mother. Hugs and wishing you peace in your heart. Dee

🐕 Those fur babies can be such a JOY. Hugs to you both. Dee

I think it is always so wonderful how kids can see the true person so easily and be drawn to the "fun" personalities of some adults. Gwen, reading some of your comments on the Forum, I feel your sense of humor that you have, even on your less than fun days and am not surprised you could easily relate to children. Bob had a lot of "kid" in him still even in his late 60's and early 70's. The easy smile and the twinkle in the eyes were always there, except when we were told of his diagnosis, that look was seldom seen anymore. Dee

No, No, No. You, Kodie and Peggy in my prayers. Dee

Yes, it is sad since she was always drawn to him whenever we were all together as a family. She would always want to be next to him. He had such an attraction to little children and animals. He was always happy to spend time with our two grandchildren. He is so missed. Dee

Gin: Keeping you in my thoughts as you say goodbye to your brother. Hugs, Dee

kayc: Oh NO. So sorry to read this. 😱 Dee