Thanks for adding me, to the admins. I thought it would be helpful to hear other's experiences as I go through this situation. My father passed away in February from ALS. He'd only had a diagnosis since the July prior, so it went quickly. A blessing to shorten suffering, I guess, but hard of course for those of us left.
I spent probably 2-3 months in total shock. I have lost pets, grandparents, distant friends, uncles, but his has been the closest one to me. They're all hard, but this one has been the closest and hardest so far.
I fear my mother's death even more now, which I know is somewhat irrational as she is in good health at the moment.
But someone at my dad's service told me "my father's death was hard, but nothing near as hard as my mother's." Felt like a stone dropped into my stomach.
I am 44, I have a 5 year old daughter I am full time caregiver for. She starts school in the fall. I am trying hard to be a good mom while I'm going through this period.
Anyways, thanks for this space and giving me a voice here.
I wish the best for all of us.
