Hi,
I lost my father to cancer 2 months ago. He was diagnosed in January, so it all went really fast. I initially felt some relief when he passed away, as he was in a lot of pain and it was extremely difficult to see him deteriorate physically in such a dramatic way. I felt a little bit numb for a couple weeks but then life sort of went back to a somewhat normal routine. However I've been experiencing crippling panic attacks for a few days. Everytime there's been a different trigger for them I think - like hearing my boyfriend talk to his dad on the phone and realizing I would never get to talk to mine again, or waking up from a bad dream.
I am really struggling right now and I was expecting to feel better at this point but somehow I feel a lot worse than right when my dad died. Any tips on how to deal with this? I have never lost anyone close before and had no idea grief could have such a physical effect on someone.
Thank you
