Yesterday I lost my best friend. It was so sudden and unexpected, I can't stop crying, I miss him so much.
I know most people think about cats as being aloof and such, but he was so loving and affectionate to me. We really had a special relationship, we were like two peas in a pod. When I'd walk around the house, he would always follow me, almost every night he would sleep on my bed.
He was a massive part of my life, half of the time I live alone so he was my company and when he was around I never felt lonely. I used to love coming home, knowing that I'd get to see him and cuddle him and that he would be there waiting for me.
I'd never thought he would die so soon.
We live on a main road, so when we first got him and his sister we would worry about them getting run over, but after a year or so had passed, we didn't feel the need to concern ourselves as we have a big field behind our garden which they often roamed in.
When he turned 7 he and his sister would often stay in more, as he got older the family could all see he was getting more affectionate.
I knew it had to come someday, but I just believed that it wouldn't be for another 10 years.
So when I found out he'd been knocked over yesterday morning I just couldn't get my head around it.
I feel like he has been snatched from me.
I am just grateful that we found out and were allowed to give him a burial and a final goodbye, it was closure even if it was so sudden. We have to thank Helena for that who works for a cat society, if it wasn't for her unselfishness and kindness (she drove all the way down from Bury), we might of not had even known and he would of just been trown away, it's people like that who I wish the best of God's luck.
Looking at the grave I buried him in, I'm finding it hard to turn away, I know it's silly, but I feel like I'm abandoning him.
His sister Marie, is acting a little strange, she is affectionate, but she isn't eating as much as normal, I wonder if she is aware of the situation, after all they grew up with each other and she would always clean him.
I'd thought I'd post this here as some people my not understand how much my Claude meant to me, he was a close member of the family. I just hold onto the believe that he is at peace in a better place.
