Hi Everyone,
It has been nearly a year since I've been here. I have been busy with work, my daughter getting married, my oldest son moving back near us and my youngest getting through his 1st year of college.
This past September marked a year that my Dad was gone. I have had an extremely difficult past 2 months or so. At first the lure of the holidays sort of distracted me, then as I got closer to them the sadness and depressive feelings just consumed me and anger too;the kind of anger that life is unfair. I see others with their Dad's and their Mom's. I have neither in my life. Some days I am glad I'm not where I was over a year ago and some days I feel that life sucks, really sucks and that it seems it will never not suck, again. I fight with the feelings of maybe I'm not appreciating enough, I don't know.
Learning to "fully" live with the sadness is so, so very hard.