Hello everyone,
I am not here to force anyone's belief in God or the afterlife, however, I know my lexie girl is still alive in a very different way. I see some of you are posting you are worried your behaviours are considered crazy. Please don't ever be so critical of yourself. I lost Lexie...had to put her to sleep just last week. She was fifteen and had fluid around her heart and couldn't stand or walk anymore. She could barely see or hear. I had her since she was five and I understand all too well what everyone is describing as intense pain. She was my baby. She wasn't a dog..she was so much more than that. She was an angel, my baby, my child. For days after her passing I took her little bed to bed with me because she loved that bed. She also loved to lay with me in the bed. I kept her favourite toys. I carry her picture with me everywhere. I have one of her pictures on my screensaver on the computer. I have been lost without her. I have cried so much and felt so depleted and tired all I have wanted to do was sleep. Its maddening, the silence, the pain, the emptiness. I understand. I have a statue that resembles her and I wrapped her blankets around it and I hold it on my lap often because it feels just like her. I have spoken to her every day. I tell her everything I think and feel. I keep telling her we will always be together eternally. I know and can feel her near to me. If anyone thinks these are odd behaviours then they are just not in tune to their higher self. Lexie IS alive in a different way. I have learned to try to see her without my eyes, hear her without my ears, and feel her without my hands. I'm sure, in time, all of you will be visited by your little boys and girls. Its very real and in no way is it ever crazy. May God Bless all your little boys and girls and may God Bless all of you and give you peace.
