JillMc

My daughter cut me off after a phone call, in which she said that she had yo distance herself from me because I was part of her toxic past. Her father was emotionally abusive to all of us, and we all have anxiety and depression as a result. My daughter developed psychotic depression in her 20s and now seems to blame me for it, as she has no contacts with her father, whom I divorced when she was 11. I wrote her a letter recently, apologising for any pain I caused her, but I think that was a mistake, as I have unwittingly "bought into" her version of the past, which makes me the blameworthy person. My daughter, aged 31 and her brother phone each other to speak ill of me. They have both blocked me on the phone and social media, so there is no communication, and she plans to move house this year. I wasn't the perfect mother, but it is hard bringing up 3 children on your own, and I am not the monster she imagines My friends say that I am a good and kind person I don't know how to face the future without my children, especially my daughter, who was once close to me.

I am grieving terribly for someone who is still alive- my beloved daughter, who, at the age of 31, has cut me out of her life. I have cried before after losing family members who have died, but the intensity of grief that I feel now is much worse, almost unbearable. I am so sad that I may never see her dear face again! People don't understand my sadness, as she is still alive. I cry a lot in private- at home and in the car. I can see how gradually you recover a bit after a death, but how do you come to terms with the grief that accompanies rejection by your child? I feel as if I may never stop crying. I've had to stop working, as I can't cope. I'm taking snti-deptessants, but they haven't changed anything, really.