flossie1943

Thank you all.Im sort of lost. My husband was of the old school he managed all the bills. Had the only bank account and generally looked after us. I diddnt have a bank account, cant drive,and didnt even know who to pay for electric. As I was the supposed invalid he didnt even leave a will. Its been a really hard learning curve on top of grieving.I still cry with frustration whenever another bill turns up. My husband also ordered lots of people to come work on the house and now Im having to pay them. I just wish they had a collage for brain dead widows. Im really angry with him, I kept asking how but he always told me not to worry and he would take care of it. Now I feel so useless, I also have a stack of papers I dont understand and Im to ashamed to tell anyone.

It was my birthday today. Its been three months since my husband died suddendly and I thought all I had to look forward to was a visit to the hospital without him holding my hand. Instead I had my son take me, my daughter meet us for lunch and my other son, relatives phoneing and grandchildren singing I even had a cake. I missed him so much and the day started out bad.But the world suddenly got bigger and I even found a Birthday card hidden that my husband had got me. The pain is still there but the life we built together is still there and my husband is in all of our hearts so he hasnt really gone has he.