Lexe

Me and my boyfriend have been dating for almost 2 years. We where eachothers firsts love and first everything. His grampa passed away about 5 months ago and he had never lost someone so close to him like that before so I completely get how upset he is. He broke up with me about a month or so afterward his grampa passed away this was around spring time. And we took a two week break from the relationship all together. We then got back together after he told me that he new what he wanted and he wanted me and us and our future together and that he loved me and everything. So we started working on getting through our issues and rebuilding our relationship and dealing with his grampas death. We had been together for 4 more months since the first break up and now he broke up with me again and I'm finding it really hard to understand why. I completely get how grieving can be painful and hard. I've been doing my absolute best to help him through it and give him space If he needs. But he told me that he needed to be alone and couldn't manage the relationship right now because his feelings are bad right now about his grampas death. I'm just really hurting because when we got back together the first time we talked about how the break up shouldn't have happened because there are other ways to fix the problems and get through our issues. And we both knew that it shouldn't haven happened and wouldn't happen again. He had promised me and was showing me for the past 4 months that that bad stuff wouldn't happen again and that he loved me and that we could get through it all together no matter how bad. But he went back on everything we have ever talked about. And it really is putting a hole in my trust. I really want to work on the relationship and help him through his feelings I just don't know how and I don't know how to make progress with him. I'm not sure what else I can do. Like I said I get that grieving is hard and I talked to him about how I would always be by his side to help I still am trying to be by his side but I don't want to put pressure on him to get better fast because I know it takes time. I just want to be able to have love together to help get through the dark times but I'm not sure what to do at all. He is the love of my life and I want to be with him and help him get through the pain because I hate seeing him in pain. It just hurts that he keeps jumping to the break up conclusion instead of trying to work things out. I have even told him that I can give him space if he needs. I feel like the break up isn't causing more problems than we need. I don't feel like we have to break up to get space if that's what he needs. And I've been trying my absolute best to put my needs on the side and not putting the relationship on the main focuse so he knew I was here to help his feelings and needs about his grampa but for some reason I don't think that's enough. And I want to helping him through everything but he says he doesn't want to hurt me but he's being so cold to me and that hurts. I feel like I'm really trying to give him what he needs and I don't get anything in return.