So I’ve posted here before almost a year ago, ex girlfriend left the relationship the day her mother passed away from cancer. I’ve had my ups and downs and I’ve tried distracting myself the best I could. Recently due to lockdown with COVID19 I’ve had a lot of time to sit and just think and it’s made me miss my ex lots. I know it’s a lost cause as the relationship is dead it just still feels sad and unreal and I still hold so much love for her as a person. I feel pathetic for having so much feelings for her even a year later. On her birthday I even sent her a lemon tree ( symbolic of the first house warming gift that her mother gave us when we moved in together ) and a necklace hanging on tree with her mother’s picture engraved on it. I didn’t do it to get her back I just knew how bad of a day it must’ve been for her. At first she was very thankful and I thought maybe we could be friends and I could check on her. As time went by and I sent a check up text she got extremely angry and told me she didn’t want friendship or anything with me.... I don’t understand what I’ve done to her ( I was not obsessive, I checked up on her once maybe every 2-3 months )? I really just want to get rid of these feelings as it’s been too long and I don’t know how when I love her so much. Does anybody have any suggestions? Sorry for typos it’s 4 am and I’m typing on a phone
