My little angel Kiwi crossed over the rainbow bridge while I held her in my arms at 7:30 this evening. She was my emotional support animal for 15yrs. She had a few physical ailments for the last couple months. I noticed her breathing was a little labored but not too bad. I took her to the Vet today just to check it out. X-RAYS showed some fluid around her lungs. The Dr. Said it wasn't too bad but he could drain it, so I said go ahead if it will make her more comfortable. 20min. later he returned with Kiwi looking good. I took her home after paying $180. She seemed ok for the first hour or so, then she began to pant , wheeze and foam from the mouth. She was in my arms when she passed. The problem is that she was "ok" but I opted to take her to the doctor and had him do an elective procedure that pretty much killed her. I apologised to her because I feel responsible for her demise. Now I'm dealing with the guilt AND the financial responsibility. In the last few months I spent almost $1500 on her! Talk about adding to insult to injury. (My gf started a go fund me for her a few weeks ago). There are good people out there that helped but it won't bring my Kiwi back. I'm devastated and wracked with guilt and can't stop sobbing. I've never felt grief like this before and don't know if I can take much more of this pain.
Thanks for listening.
Bob
