I don’t know where to start and have never posted on these groups before only read the messages to try help my self.
I’m 35 and lost my older brother (only 42) unexpectedly even though he was in hospital improving from something else which makes it even harder as what he was in there for we believe wasn’t what happened to him.
We also lost our dad (69) less than 3 years ago and feel this time helpless or like I should of done more or something I just don’t know if I will ever be the same without him he was a great big bro, mate and even best man at my wedding which I will cherish. Perhaps I was just lucky to have him at all as he had a different mom by we had the same dad .
I just dont know how to handle it and often find myself looking at this pictures and thinking about all the stuff we would of done with our kids over the next how many years .
