I’m really glad I found this forum. My younger sister died June first of cancer. She turned 53 ten days before she died. I’m 55. It’s really hard. She started getting really angry the last few years. She didn’t even know she had cancer until a few months before she died. She had multiple myeloma which cannot affect your brain. She got so angry at me and was so cruel to me that we weren’t speaking for about 6 months before she died. I have no way of knowing if it was the cancer in her brain or not. No one can tell me. I just can’t believe she’s really dead. I feel like I shouldn’t be allowed to live since she was younger than me. My brother is really messed up and he just keeps yelling at me and insulting everything I do and say. He has always done that. But I can’t take it anymore. I just called the suicide hotline but there was this annoying jazz music and the woman came on every ten seconds to tell you to hold on. So then I tried the text line and there were 50 people in front of me.
it’s true what someone said that everyone just wants you to get over it when your grieving. It just seems like no one gets it or cares.
