It's been 18 days since I've seen him. I am 50 years old - he was 54. We were best friends/soulmates/together for 8 years. It felt like a 1st date every time we were together... we had very few arguments and even those were quickly resolved. We truly loved one another wholly and completely. He went to sleep and never woke up again. It turns out he had heart problems that he was unaware of. At times I can function as though I will be OK and try to find peace in the fact that he didn't suffer. But more often, I am frozen, sad and in disbelief. Just wondering if anyone riding this has experienced this?