Nichole

Im sending so many virtual hugs your way! I know the pain so well. What a sweet baby, thank you for sharing this picture. I had to put down my Lulu who was 16 on Oct 19th. It's been 1 month since shes been gone and I still cry each day. I can promise you that you did the right thing. Chocolate would have never left you but what is a quality of life if you cant even get up or walk or live in such pain. He trusted in you to be his advocate. It is the greatest act of kindness and love. I know when the pain is so overwhelming you second guess yourself at each moment and replay what you could have done differently.I promise you that you did the right thing. What an amazing gift Chocolate gave you to give you 19 years! I wish I could have had lulu 19 years. Please try your hardest to know you did the right thing, just last week I stopped punishing myself for the quick decision I made to have someone come to my home as well and put my lulu down. It takes time but I promise as time helps heal you will know that you did the right thing, and Chocolate will be with you forever. Not even death can break a bond that strong. Be kind to yourself right now, Chocolate would have never wanted you to punish yourself for giving him the greatest gift, a loving amazing life for 19 years, and a painless death in his home with the ones he loves. Sending you all the love and hugs, in time maybe you will be able to honor chocolate in giving another animal in need of your love a good life and loving home. Love, Nichole

Your post hit me hard. Everything you said about your lulu is how I felt about my lulu. Lost her on 10/19. I’m devastated and lost. Know I grieve with you and I’m sending you hugs from California 💕 our lulus we’re so special.

Hi Jim, I feel your pain so much, it’s unbearable. I also work from home and know you can sympathize how empty it feels without our beloved dogs. It’s been 3 weeks since I lost my lulu and it’s not gotten easier. Hang in there and know you are not alone. Sending love and comfort from California 🐾💕 Nichole

What a sweet face, I’m so so sorry for your loss. I lost my fur baby lulu to bad hips and frequently falling. I had to put her down on 10-19-19. It’s been almost 3 weeks and I can’t seem to snap back into life. I don’t know life without her and can completely sympathize with you. You did what was best for Juno. That’s the ultimate act of love. I have to believe we see them again. You were Juno’s person and Juno was your heart. Not even death can break that bond 💕🐾

It's been 2 weeks now since I made the quick decision to put the love of my life and soulmate to sleep. Her name was Lulu. She was a rescue pit that I got back in 2003 when I was 16 years old. Lulu was my life. I don't have children of my own and the past 16 years she has been by my side. Thursday October 17th Lulu started to walk funny, almost like she was drunk. It got worse by Friday and then Saturday where she couldn't get up on her own, or it was very hard for her (she was so stubborn) and proud. This had happened back in July but she recovered. This time seemed much worse. Friday night I was up with her all night and watched her struggle to get up or even go to the bathroom without falling over. I had wanted to wait till Monday to see how she was doing, but couldn't bare to see her in pain. I thought I knew at the time it would be selfish for me to keep her here for me. I didn't want her to be embarrassed or have her pain be unbearable. I didn't want to drag her to the vet either, so I went Friday to get her pain meds to keep her comfortable. I had an appointment to have her put down Monday but after spending Friday night with her struggling, I contacted the vet Saturday morning. I texted the vet to come by to let lulu pass in my arms at our home. This was the hardest text ive ever had to send knowing in a few short hours the love of my life would be gone forever. I always knew lulu would make me choose when the time was right for her to leave me. She was so loyal, she never would have left me even if it meant her life wasn't enjoyable. My heart is broken, I cant even seem to complete daily task without falling to tears or having the self doubt hit me so hard. I read online what seems to be what she had "Old dog syndrome" which usually clears up on its own within a few weeks. Why didn't I nurse her back to health? Why didn't I take her to the vet? At the time I didn't want to drag her someplace where she would be uncomfortable (lulu hated the vet) This has been the hardest thing ive dealt with my entire life. The pain of missing her is unbearable. Is it normal to doubt yourself after choosing to put your beloved pet down? I had another dog named tootie that died September 2017. Tootie had trouble breathing, it was hard but somewhat easier because her body was telling me it was time. Lulu was old, but could still get around, she fell frequently, maybe I was just used to her old age? I don't know what I can do to make this pain go away. I will miss lulu forever. I hope one day I feel like I did what was best for her