I am the same. I have abandonment issues and it is part of the side effects that I do things that are not good for me such as overeating or procrastinating.
I was eating so healthy for the last 5 years and now I started eating sugar and as I am typing this I like to go to the store and eat what is out of my eaing plan. I have a cold and I should be eating healthy but I do not want to. On one hand I understand it is thanksgiving and family members who should be here for me are not even caring.