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Amberley

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  • Your relationship to the individual who died
    Partner
  • Date of Death
    November 1st 209
  • Name/Location of Hospice if they were involved:
    Na

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    Female
  • Location (city, state)
    BOLTON

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  1. I'm so sorry for your loss, I'm also quite young 23 and lost the love of my life and my best friend. It's pretty isolating. My partner passed on november 1st. It's now the 12th and I'm finally not crying every night. I really hope you're finding some comfort and support from this site. I found the thread I made to be quite helpful. Wishing you all the best ❤️
  2. Johnny, reading your memories felt like I had wrote that myself. I felt the same way about my partner, being with her was a dream come true for me, the fact that you're still pushing forward brings me so much hope. Yesterday the movers moved all of our furniture to my mothers. I've been pulling apart boxes, finding all of our photos, even the furniture is hard to look at. We put all of it together, we laughed at the IKEA booklets, our whole life together has been moved to my mothers basement and it's been very difficult for me. On the positive note, I've made a bit of a memory space for her.. our pictures, her glasses, her purse, cards we wrote to each other.. all of her cherished things. I'm not sure if it brings me comfort. It looks nice, I could never throw her things away, I'm just angry that all I can do is make a space for them? That her glasses arent on her like they should be, her purse isnt on her arm.. it just brings me sadness that all i have left is just.. things, memories.
  3. Johnny, I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm thinking about you today, congrats on making it a year. I hope in a year I can congratulate myself for the same thing. I know today will be tough on you, I can only imagine. But know that you're loved by all of us here and you can always come here to vent. So very sad, I'm so sorry your just beginning your journey through this grief and you've certainly been given a handful of it. I wish you all the best in the coming weeks. Gwenivere, I'm sorry you don't have any faith, I myself struggle with that all the time. I don't believe in a god, which makes it much harder. I was an atheist for all of my life until this happened and now It is the only thing that brings me comfort. That maybe somehow some way I can be with her again, right now that's all I'm hopeful for. Someone once very wise told me "it doesn't matter if it's TRUE or not, what matters is if it brings you comfort." Kayc, thank you for the post of pointers, I found most of those extremely helpful and it's quite apparent you put some time into it. You seem to be a bit of a rock for most people on here, I see you on almost every forum and I thank you for that.
  4. Hi Katie, I'm pretty new here. I lost my partner very recently and often feel all of the things you described. It doesn't make it easier does it.. its okay to feel angry, cheated, hurt and it's okay to mourn the life you were suppose to live too. I hope you have lots of support around you, and if you don't, I hope you're able to find some here.
  5. Thank you all so much for your kind words and sharing your own experiences. It doesn't make it easier as I'm sure you all know. But it does bring me hope that if you wonderful people could get through this. Maybe I can too. I am so sorry for each of your losses. I am trying to take it moment by moment, though sometimes the moments feel so long. Is there anything you found helpful through out your days? To pass time, or care for yourselves?
  6. I think I could write a book on how my last few months have gone. My fiancee recently passed away, november 1st. She was in the hospital for a month, I went to see her every day. We only had two and a half years together, and some may think that's easier. But for me its not. I feel cheated, life gave me the two happiest years, and now I have so very long to live without her. We had a relationship that I believe people only dreamt of, we both have had horribly dark pasts and managed to find each other, start a life together, we often talked about the fact that neither of us could live without the other. I lost my home, my job, my friends and community, and the biggest loss, my best friend and soul mate, all in a month. I struggled with suicide and mental health before I met her, I had gotten so much better, I had dreams, a passion, I had overcome my biggest challenges with her by my side. But since she has passed I'm slipping. I often feel I have nothing left to live for. She was my life, she was the reason I wanted to get better and the reason for doing so well these passed few years. I'm really struggling with my faith, I never really had much before she passed, but I've been asking for signs each day and continue to receive them. Does anyone else wish that the person they've lost would just poke their head out of the sky like mufasa from the lion king and say "I'm here, I'm with you, I love you and I'll be here when you're ready."? How much easier it would be if I knew for sure. I am in therapy and am getting as much support as I possibly can be. I'm always open to more suggestions, or stories of similarities and overcoming, please be gentle with me. Thank you for listening.
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