Thank you for your kind words, I’m more sorry about Arlie than I can say. My love of dogs was given to me like a gift from my father from a very young age. I believe Lucy is with my daddy in heaven, which is indeed a very lucky thing for her. He’s playing with her and watching out for her. And I know she’s loving him. I hope I’ll see her again. I hope she forgives my shortsightedness.
Thank you for the article, I will read it. I’m still searching for something that makes sense of this. I feel so guilty but I didn’t even mention that my two precious kitties and my own sister were also killed in the blaze. Such destruction and death..
And I feel even more guilty that though I loved my sister immensely and of course Princess and Marley, the kitties, that I focus on Lucy’s loss above anything. I feel like it makes me a bad person. Princess was 19 and deserved to die safe and warm in my arms and Marley was 8 and such a sweet, silly boy. But who grieves so badly about a dog more than their sister? It shames me to my core and yet I can’t help it.
But my heart is broken over that girl. I can’t help it. Her face was the last thing I saw before I got out.
I am in therapy and a PTSD group, so far not much helps. I just have to ride it out
Thank you for your kind words, I send you healing and peace.