On January 12th 2020 at 11:20am my beloved cat Sylvia was euthanized. She had mammary tumors and one was infected. She was everything to me. The words "humane euthanasia " just keep running through my mind like a nightmare. I thought we were just going in for antibiotics just to have them tell us they needed to put her down. I dont know what to do without her. I almost called for her this morning before I remembered what happened. I'm so heartbroken. I dont know how I'm going to be strong for my kids, ages 11 and 9.