Hello.
My bf is 23yrs old and i am 20. My mom passed away in November. My world revolved around my mom. She was everything and more to me. I begged my family to let me be buried with her. Thats how much her death devastated me. My bf called me a few hours after she passed and said hed be there for me and that we'd go through it together. He just graduated college and was an international student. He only has a few months to find a job before he is deported and his job search hasnt been going well. He moved two hours from where we went to university together. I understand he has to do what he has to do but i need him so badly. I do not have a good relationship with my family and im not close with them. He said hed be there for me but when i call he says hes busy or tired and wont talk to me. All i want to do is talk i dont even care if he listens. Hell i just want to sit on the phone in silence most of the time because all i want is to know he'll be there and that he's there. He's living in a shared house and has his own room and i asked him if i could stay with him for a couple of weeks because i just really want to be near him but he told me theres no room. I feel like he hates me. I thought he'd be there for me when i needed him. He gets mad because i want to talk to him everyday. I just dont know what to do. Should I just end it ?
