I too lost the love of my life in an accident we were both involved in. Fortunately it was a one car accident, the bearing something or other fell apart on the right front wheel and we went off of the road. We hit the only boulder for hundreds of feet. My love died almost instantly (August 20th, 2006), he was only 51 years old and was the best man I ever knew. I was injured in the accident and spent three weeks in the hospital and have been recovering for the last three months at home. I am finally able to walk with the aid of a cane, but hope to be off of it by Christmas. One of the hardest parts of this is the fact that I never got to go to his funeral. I didn't have an opportunity to say goodbye, or grieve as the hospital kept me in a "fog" for quite a while. Then I also felt I had to comfort everyone around me. When I finally came out of it I have been feeling like I live in a nightmare and I will wake up and he will come in and say "Hello Sweetie". I just can't get past the way it happened. We had so much to say to each other, though I knew him most of my life we had only been dating a few months. We were in love, we were already speaking of our future. How can he be gone, how can I have a future now? I seriously have times when I don't want to go on knowing he won't be there with me. He was so much fun, he was so honest, loving, sweet, kind, honorable, and sexy!! There will never be anyone I will love as much as I loved him. That is so hard to imagine, after having so much love in my life and knowing I will never find that again is so excruciating. My heart hurts all of the time. Even when I am at work and seem so normal my heart is breaking and my mind is screaming NO, HE CAN'T BE GONE. I live in a small town and everywhere I go I have images of him and I together. Even at work as he was the School Resource Officer at the school I work at. Knowing he won't ever hold me again, or tell me a joke, give me a hug, make love to me, pet my dog, or even drive by again is devastating to me. My mind and my heart can't seem to accept it. Even after 3 months sometimes it feels like it happened yesterday. How does anyone ever get through the pain? If this is how I feel after loving him for a few months how does anyone who spends years with their love survive when they are gone? Mary In loving memory Charles "Pepper" Withers, the best man I have ever known, the love of my life.