Eddie3

Thank You, I am most grateful, I am doing the best I can, I realize it is perhaps validated, I am just having trouble, My Mother passed in November '19 God was good to me, she was the best Mom i could have ever asked for, so much love and heartfelt warmth from her, I got even closer to my Mother to help her with my Dad who was very ill cancer & copd and 3 days after he passed in 2017 November, I had to whisk her to the hospital, she never recovered from his passing married 55 years, she battled Parkinson's and perhaps Alzheimer's, some days were very tough to help her thru her struggles with her ailments and mind, I hated feeding her medicine, it sucked, I never gave up hope, while other siblings said " I cant deal with that stuff" I never wavered, I am not beating my own drum, Its just I Love her so much......its literally shredding me inside,as it should I am sure....nonetheless, it feels crushing....everything feels hollow and empty. Again thank you, I read others' stories, I know I am not alone, and I feel heartfelt sympathy for everyone here, I just don't know if I can ever recover, I have to get all this home cleaning and probate done, If I could sleep forever I would.

thank you kayc, i am glad you responded. I am trying my best, i reached out to this support group forum because my days are very heavy reading your replies give me some support, I thank You from my heart!!!

it gets messy why they wont help, 1 sister only wants valuables and claims she works, i work too...lol, 1 sister held on to my Mothers funds that I put in her hands to pay for medical bills, I was POA and I am executor, she had to make things be all about her, she said she would help me but never showed up, I needed those funds to help with final cost of my Mothers service and probate attorney, instead i had to get this handled alone,1 sister teams with the first 1 mentioned and back feeds any information I may talk about, the probate is moving along, I have another meeting wednesday this week, I left my townhouse when my Father was very ill, upon his passing over I stayed with my Mother because she needed it and I would never turn my back on her at any costs, Im her only son and 1st child, the saddest thing is I have no place to live upon selling the home, I gave up everything to help my parents, My Father always used to say, Life is funny sometimes...lol, family is funny too, money grubbers while i am stuck in turmoil and emotional destruction......thank you for your reply, It means very much to me.!!! Thank You for the Link kayc 😇

I am sorry for your loss and the load you have to bear, I hope it eases up off you, I offer you my support, I am a 56 yo son who has been to there to care for my ailing Dad who passed in 2017, my Mother God Bless Her, was his caretaker and support system while he battled cancer,copd and bronchitis , all the while she was battling parkinson's disease which affected her in many ways, eating,vision,thoughts,movements etc, I stood by them both I would pray as a little boy I would never have to live without them both, they mean that much to me, my Mother recently passed late in 2019, they were married 55 years, I have 3 sisters and am doing the probate, cleaning out and sorting all alone, it is gut wrenching ,some days i just look and sort for 30 minutes because i cant take the pain,only time anyone came by was a week after Mommy passed over and they looked at what was around to grab,the probate process is burdensome, not being able to properly grieve and having to tend to business of probate and satisfying greedy queries of family has made it very very tough, in addition i manage a full time business, somedays i grieve so much i feel crippled, I need help, everything feels like it was ripped right out of me and i find very little to actually live for, my Mother is my very best friend and always will be, I miss her so much, just to hug her one time and hold her hand I would do anything....God I Miss Her So!!!!