We had to say goodbye to our dog on Friday as well because of kidney disease and it all felt so fast. I'm going to tell you what a friend told me when I told her: "That's the hardest, most loving thing." Dogs are so loyal and even when things get really bad and they are in chronic pain that we can or can't see, they will push it aside to keep going another day. We don't want them to experience that, what we want is for them to physically be with us for as long as possible, but not when we know what's coming will be the worst days of their lives. While there might be signs, they can't communicate when pain starts or how bad it is for them, and we can't ask them when it's too much to bare. Please repeat to yourself that this was the hardest most loving thing. The guilt is part of the grief. It's terrible to have the weight and responsibility of that decision, but it's because of the deep relationship and love you have and always will have for your pet. It will come and go, and you have to let it.
