Ive lost my beloved son Mark, 38, five weeks ago to stage 4 bowel cancer. He was given 18 months to live and I feel so cheated as he only had 15 months and most of that he endured so much pain and discomfot regardless of constant palliative care.
I was strong, encouraging and we were hopefull we could extend his life by raising funds for a top up drug Avastin, also hoping to get onto trials, but it was not to be.
I was in shock after Mark's gone. I didnt cry for the first three weeks, but now, the physical pain and upset Im finding unbearable. My GP prescribed some tablets I slept 2 days but its all back on again.