My dad died of an heart attack this month and my world just came crashing down. He was only 50 and i’m 20 and the thought of having to live a lifetime without him really scares me, and breaks me. I’ve been in a relationship for the past 2 years but now its like i’m void of feelings and can only focus on missing my dad. As bad as it may sou d dont have it in me to care or give attention to my partner and honestly I would love to be single right now. But at the same time i dont know, its like I know I love my partner but I cant really feel it and like everything in my life now I would love to be able to pause it for awhile