My 6th friend in 10 years was just diagnosed with metastatic brain cancer last week (all under age 58). Also, a woman who is like my second mom has multiple myeloma in late stages. The last 10 years have been so challenging. I saw this category of anticipatory grief and would do anything to understand how to be more detached from that anticipation. I think I love people too much, sometimes I wonder how to go on. Not enough joy. Please pray for me to in the midst, have more joy and pleasure. I literally need techniques or resources to help me deal with this much grief. When I see the Red Cross truck go by I want to stop them and say, “i have a disaster.” Thank you for listening.
